Jill Terry

If I hadn’t
Loved him
So
Much
My loathing
Wouldn’t run
So
Deep

Tags: forgiveness, hate, heartache, lies, loathing, love, pain, passion, relationships, truth

She doesn’t seek his memory, it just comes creeping; and when it does, that’s all there is.
Its nothing to do with fear or inspiration; building a fan base that was there long before he was; or anything at all for matter of fact. For who would dream of seeking such hurt.
Its simply a means of [...]

Tags: addiction, betrayal, darkness, deception, desperation, disease, egomaniac, emptiness, fear, hate, healing, heartache, hurt, knowing, liar, lies, living, love, memories, mind fuck, pain, poison, purging, soul survival, truth, Writing

There comes a certain “feel,” no matter where you happen to be, whenever his thoughts turn in your direction.
It starts at the basic level of the flesh; like the cool breeze on a crisp autumn night; tantalizing and chilling all at once.
Your blood pressure rises, heart rate increases, as he sends invisible waves of desire, [...]

Tags: chemical reaction, con, connections, conniving, coward, cunning, cur, darkness, deceit, deceiver, deception, demon, disguise, egomaniac, emotions, empty, evil, facade, feelings, hate, illusion, immoral, karma, liar, lies, love, lowlife, manipulation, mind fuck, narcissism, predator, reality, scoundrel, sociopath, suave, surrender, thief, Unconscionable, unscrupulous, weak, wicked, wicked games

Echoes swirl
Through hallowed
Halls
Bouncing off doors
Inside my
soul
Meaningless words
Wrapped in
Illusion
A singular voice
Bent on spiritual
Intrusion
Bolt the door
Against his
Dark
Shut my eyes
Seek thy
Light

Tags: dark, emptiness, faith, hate, illusion, intrusion, lies, light, love, mind games, past, poetry, present, release, seek, self preservation, truth, voices

She made the mistake of reading the list of Top Ten News Headlines. Reminded, yet again, of the insanity that surrounds us; the human beasts we are forced to co-exist with. A truth that at times, is almost too much to bear.
Lab worker held in Yale student’s slaying – Mom finds slain bodies of [...]

Tags: anger, angst, curse, debauchery, evil, facade, fear, gift, God, good, hate, human atrocity, human behavior, illusion, judgments, lies, life paths, mad world, media, murder, observations, perception, personal journey, predictions, premonition, rape, reality, Satan, second sight, seer, sin, spiritual, survival, television, truth, understanding, unveil

With old patterns faltering in the wake of time, serving him less and less; desperation creeps, then slowly sets in.
Searching for something real to cling to; in a world of illusion and cheap parlor tricks; of which he created and has always dwelled.
Better to be an imaginary somebody, than a real no body; his platform, [...]

Tags: beliefs, comeuppance, desperation, disaster, disguise, forgiveness, hate, hopeless, illusion, karma, lies, Life, loathing, lonely, lost, love, masochist, meaningless, misperception, observations, pain, perception, predator, prey, prose, retribution, self hatred, short stories, soulless, truth, unveiled, wasted life

I feared the words
He spoke were truth
Of me
About me
In spite of me
Because
He knew me
Because
I let him
Because
I wanted him to
Like none other
Before or after
Deeper
Better
To the core
Then left to wonder
If he knew me
At all

Tags: bitter pill, connections, cruel intentions, doubt, fear, hate, hurt, lies, loss, love, motives, pain, peace of mind, power of words, relationships, the hyena, truth, uncertainty, words

My dreams took me back last night; to a place I haven’t been in over a decade; a place I never imagined my self being, and never want to be again.
Ten years devoted.
Ten years spent.
Irretrievable.
Broken.
Gone forever.
I entered through the familiar front door; the scent that was us overwhelmed and stopped me in my tracks. My [...]

Tags: addiction, blue glass vase, changing seasons, darkness, devotion, dreams, drugs, dysfunction, faithful, hate, hidden meaning, hope, life's storms, light, looking back, love, marriage, memories, past lives, Peace, perception, reflections, regret, relationships, saving grace, seasons of life, sentiment, things, Through my Eyes, unfaithful, visions

He forced her to look at the world, in a way she never had before. Bringing out the best in her, while dancing with the devil in her. Two people coming together, no matter the reason or cause; finding several common threads that held them together for a while.
When time had come for both to [...]

Tags: apology, born anew, broken heart, broken spirit, connections, death, despair, goodbyes, gratitude, hate, hope, lies, Life, love, renewal, resurrection, the hyena, truth