Strumming my pain

1 September 2010

She hangs on my wall, beautiful; a place of inspiration right beside my desk. I reach for her in times of sadness, wanting to ease my minds burdens. Feel the weight of her in my hands; pull her to me, secure in my embrace, the wood cool against my flesh. I place my fingers upon her strings close my eyes and strum, longing to emit the sound of my souls pain, but alas, no music am I able to make.

For inasmuch as I could easily obtain and make her my very own; an instrument of purest emotional release, I wonder if she’ll ever be…

Haiku you

31 August 2010

Depressions endless darkness loomed
Taking hold in which to slowly consume
One determined light shining brightly through

Random

15 August 2010

He was always rather
Random
Coming and going on
Whims
Staying only long
Enough
To see her interest
Piqued

Quote of the day

11 August 2010

“All things are subject to interpretation; whichever interpretation prevails at a given time is a function of power and not truth.”
~ Friedrich Nietzsche

Pompous ass

7 August 2010

He sits in judgment
On his throne of
Self-loathing

Nothing to show
For his time in
Existence

But material possessions
He wants others
To covet

Understanding not
Why his family
So perfect

Do not bring happiness
He thinks he deserves

Yet never questions why
He diverts his own reflection

Afraid of what he’ll find
If faced with the man in the mirror

DETACHMENT

7 August 2010

In the service of
Ego’s agenda
Power trips ensue

Trying at best
Destructive at worst
Leading us deeper
Into confusion and conflict

Unprocessed emotion
Released into stillness
Focus shifting
Drama untangling

Breaking free slowly
Calling out for healing

Major Award

5 August 2010

No matter how thrilled I might have been perceived, I thought my final paragraph on yesterdays post was obvious in summing up the way I really feel about literary awards in general, but apparently not. I’ve been receiving them for over a decade now, some legit, some not-so-much; and while it’s always cool to hear people praise your craft, it doesn’t always necessarily mean or amount to anything but a feel good moment; and that’s exactly what the letter of recognition was; a…feel…good…moment.

My site and personal email have been inundated with messages about the IBRC recognition being a sham; so much so that I’ve had to turn on the comment moderator, which I loathe. Truthfully, I couldn’t tell you if it is legit or not, or if such a council even exists, because once I read the email it became instant fodder for my prose; a post to bring attention to the fact that I’ve been blogging for five years; and hey, check out this major award I just received!

KA, my fist commenter, pushed me over the edge by pissing on my moment and adding to my already horrendous day; which simply drove me directly to that ugly place inside myself that I try to avoid at all cost. And then my peeps started praising me, I felt my smile begin to shine again, way down deep inside, and what was I gonna do, tell them thanks, but you missed the gist? No, I graciously accepted their praise and kind words, which I might add, are more rewarding than any award I’ve received to date. People I know and love, reiterating the fact that they get me and dig me. How fucking cool is that?!

So strangers, listen up and take note; this is a cutthroat industry and I, more than most, am a living testament to the sharks that swim the shallows in search of easy prey. Literary awards in the form of trophies are cool, except they collect dust on your book shelves; write-ups in the paper are way cool, because they can be clipped and put in your scrapbook; but literary accolades in the form of rave reviews are the absolute coolest! Why, because they carry real weight. Someone has taken the time to read you and found your work worthy of praise; praise that is published in various mediums, sent out into the world for others to read and take note of, which in turn will lead to book sales.

You won’t ever have to pay a fee to enter a real literary contest, or to receive a legitimate award. You won’t ever have to pay a reading fee to a real editor or publisher. You won’t ever be expected to pay the balance due to a literary agent until you have seen some actual results and are well into your book tour. You don’t have to pay a graphic artist thousands, [yes, I said thousands] of dollars to create a book cover that will stop people in their tracks and make them want to pick up your book and read it. Sorry, but it is absolute truth that people do, in fact, judge a book by its cover!

You will have to pour your blood, sweat and tears into your craft and hone your skill to perfection before your platform can be built [if you build it they will come]. No matter how many gimmicks you may fall prey to, no matter how many awards you may receive, how many book store shelves your books may be displayed on; if the writing is shit, you might as well call it a day and find yourself a hobby. Being a writer isn’t a hobby. It isn’t a lifestyle choice. It’s either who you are, or you’re not!

To sum; praise is good, but keep your award and…SHOW ME THE MONEY!

Some days it does pay!

4 August 2010

I decided last night that I was going to downplay and simply let the day pass without putting any stock in the fact that my blog was started on this date exactly five years ago. Followers come and they go; they read and they respond, some don’t ever let you know they’re there at all, but at the end of the day the stats show that people are, in fact, showing up each and every day, from all corners of the world; and regardless whether they take the time or feel moved to leave a comment, I always hope that they’ve taken something away with them; something that will make them pause and think, long after they’ve left my dark little corner of the virtual universe.

So, much to my surprise and delight, today I receive an email from the International Blogging Recognition Council (IBRC), informing me that based on a referral, the Council had the pleasure of reviewing my blog, Wordsmith Extraordinaire, and has recommended that it receive the designation of “Recognized Blog;” an honor, which I was informed, is reserved for exceptional blogs and their bloggers, effectively connecting with their audience and promoting the sharing of ideas and experiences.

I’ll take that!

And so, in celebration of five very long years of the spewing of my heart and soul, in the form of words, into the blogosphere for any and all to see, I say Happy Anniversary to ME; and for a job internationally recognized as well done, I have finally found cause to present myself with the coolest major award known to man.

Exquisite Wandering

4 August 2010

Languidly she lingers
On the wave of desire
He secretly built
Within the walls
Of her heart

Outside the restraints
Of self inflicted bonds
Passion awakens
The slumbering Temptress

Holding a sense of wonder
Emerging from dark silence
In search of the one would satisfy
Her insatiable burning hunger

Witnessing this
Her final release
He takes all she gives in offering
Extricating their mutual pain

Loving her madly
Vast and freely
Penetrating her soul
Until she cries no more

Observation

3 August 2010

People are fine, so long as you’re telling them what they think they want to hear; but push that ‘Real’ button and they’ll turn on you in a heartbeat. You know the one – it opens the door and lets the truth spill out…

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